Saturday, September 03, 2005
there's a girl who's stuck in two 'different worlds'. who cant decide what to do. who has two very 'different personalities'. one is the 'havoc kind always looking for trouble' or vice versa while the other is the kind who 'wants to strive well'. but she just cant decide what she wanna do. her parents are controlling her. strictly. that she doesn have much freedom or time to spend with others. so she did the best option she could think of. yes. this is what she always does. to get her out of her troubles and confusions. temptations are hard to resist. she cant stop doing it.. but she wants to stop in case it will hurt others and herself. she doesn wanna continue living in this world of 'living because she has to' life. sometimes she feels damn tired..and always wanting to give up.. but something keeps her going on..
FRIENDS. they are the ones who have helped her. unknowlingly. and she's grateful for the many friends who have helped and saved her. in ways that they themselves do not know..cherishing all that she's having now..be it good or bad..she just wanna have the time of her life.
please dun expect high expectations of me! cux i really cant take and reach it! no matter how i try, i just cant seem to satisfy you. just let me be and dun push me so hard. you should have the last of your illusions. cux the truth is that it will be the end of me if it carries on. and you will know by then, you were the one who have broken me.
